What an Artist Dies in Me
Chapter Three - Mother, Interrupted
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CHAPTER THREE
Mother, Interrupted
THE THING ABOUT killing your mother is...
you really only get one shot.
And Nero missed — several times.
It would almost be funny if it weren’t so disturbing. The emperor of the Roman world — master of legions, heir to divine blood, draped in purple and crowned by the Senate — couldn’t figure out how to kill one woman.
But Agrippina wasn’t just any woman. She was Agrippina the Younger.
And her death didn’t come easy.
First came the poisoned wine.
Didn’t work — she had been dosing herself for years in case of plots.
Then came the collapsing ceiling in her bedroom.
Missed her — crushed a servant instead.
Then came the boat.
This was Nero’s magnum opus. A self-sinking yacht, designed by engineers with instructions that read more like a slapstick script than an assassination plot. Collapsible hull, weighted fixtures, escape mechanism disabled.
She boarded. He toasted her. She sailed.
And the boat fell apart right on cue.
But Agrippina, somehow, floated.
Some accounts say she swam. Others say she clung to wreckage.
What matters is what happened next.
She made it to shore.
She sent word to her son.
A single, icy message:
“Tell the emperor I have survived.”
That wasn't a mother’s note.
It was a threat.
At this point, Nero unraveled.
He stopped pretending.
No more theater. No more subtlety.
He dispatched assassins straight to her villa. No traps, no riddles, just violence.
They surrounded her.
And as they raised their blades, she’s said to have pointed to her womb and hissed:
“Strike here.”
Whether or not she actually said it doesn’t matter. It feels true. Because this wasn’t just murder — it was erasure. The boy who owed her everything had finally become the man who couldn’t bear to owe anyone anything.
The Senate called it a suicide.
They praised Nero for his “moral clarity.”
Statues of Agrippina vanished overnight.
And Rome?
Rome laughed nervously. Then looked away.
Because they knew what it meant to live under an emperor who’d killed his own mother.
It meant the rules didn’t apply anymore.
Not to him.
And not to anyone.
He’d crossed the threshold.
And on the other side of that door?
There were no gods left.
Only ghosts.
